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Date: Thu, 26 Dec 1996 14:07:04 -0500

Halo!

a brilliant idea, Lars, of transcribing the interview! you got it:

and now...a completely outdated interview with....
the Legendary Pink Dots

first of all, i would like to thank dear brother Pat hopewell for arranging
this interview, getting me into the place, and pointing us into the direction
that we needed to go. i would also like to thank dear brother Brett smith for
writing me and telling me about the show in the first place.
Victoria (my wife at the time) and i were directed to sabine, the road
manager, who proceeded to lead us to the small, cramped dressing room in back
where we were introduced to edward ka-spel (vocalist and what such) who was
hunched in his little chair in his little corner nibbling on the assorted
nabisco snacks symetrically arranged for him on some plastic tray. meager,
yes. he was so small and seemed rather timid, all bunched up in his large,
black trenchcoat. one had to search a bit to find him. he was very soft
spoken and was very patient with us as we stumbled thru our questions. later,
we were joined by neils van hoorn (in charge of the instruments of wind and
of the wind itself) and the silverman (in charge of the keyboards and calm
manner), just before being whisked away by  babysitter sabine to eat. there
was also another man walking around who seemed in the band yet seperate from
it. this turned out to be the guitar and bass player to whom we were never
introduced (i was introduced to him a couple of years later in chicago, but i
don't remember his name due to all of those half-pints of rum christian and i
kept buying to drink in the park before the show).

Christus: so how has the day been so far? pretty chaotic?
edward: almost disasterous. we tens to store our gear in the shower of the
camper, and during the night the water had sort of come down, some how, and
soak filled the equipment...
c: is that what you were doing on the headphones, making sure everything was
alright?
e: oh, i knew it was okay, i was just working out a new bit for a song.
C: so you work out songs on the road?
e: oh yeah, things are always changing...
c: is there a central place that the band hails from or do you all come from
different places?
E: we all originate from different places but we're based in a small dutch
town called nijmegen.
c: what's the society like there? the government?
e: a little more, i would say much more, moderate than what you find here.
alot more balanced than what you find here, i think. i mean, certain things
quite apall me about america, certain things fascinate me as well. i mean, i
would never be one of these people who say "i hate america". it's too
interesting, too fascinating. but, you know, you can be quite shocked by some
things. there's quite a lot of lunacy around this country. we've witnessed a
reasonable amount already in just the short time we've been here.
c: what kinds of things have happened?
e: well, take an incident last night when we were standing outside a club in
minneapolis. suddenly we heard this screech of tires, and basically it was a
parking lot attendant who had just lost his mind and was sort of like
whizzing around the corner, smashed his car into a phone box deliberately and
then, sort of backed it away and then, sort of, uh...yeah, he was just trying
to wreck things with his car. there was all the police there and things like
that and you think "where are we?" (laughter). and i think this was supposed
to be one of the more civilised towns there are in minneapols. i mean, it's
got a good reputation. but, we've mostly been treated wonderfully but for one
exception. it was new york. that was attrocious. in a club where they didn't
pay us, they didn't feed us, they tried basically to claw as much money out
of the one thing we could make money from which was the t-shirts. it was like
capitalism at it's worst, especially when they're like a thousand people
watching the show. i don't like the naked face of capitalism shouting at me
like that.
c: does it show its face in any way like that where you come from? (i was
subtley sizing up holland as a place to move to, in case you hadn't picked up
on that)
e: not like that. nowhere near like that.
c: it's much more subtle?
e: yeah. at the very worst it's simply polite. you know, new york has got
like this intense arrogance about it. very, very blunt. but not from the
audience. the audience was great. but your just another part of a conveyor
belt of bands. you just pass thru. but that is just new york. i mean
everywhere else, like here today, has been great.
c: what about the last time you were here in kansas city, if you remember,
about 2 or 3 years ago?
e: 2 years ago, yeah, about 60 people or something? (laughter)
c: yeah it was just you, neils, and the silverman.
e: that's right. it was one of the strangest shows of the tour because it was
so small, and that's why we tend to remember it.
c: it was like this disco bar. i enjoyed it very much.
e: it's actually the third time i've played kansas (missouri, actually). i
played solo as well in '87 with skinny puppy, this big theater...
c: and you've collaborated with cevin from skinny puppy...
e: that's right. well, we're doing it again around august. (and they did,
recording 'the last man to fly' and 'sheila liked the rodeo' in these
sessions)
c: as the tear garden?
e: yes.
C: the number 16 seems to reappear...
e: it always changes. sometimes it's 15, sometimes it's 834.
c: so 16 means nothing?
e: no.
c: just a number...
e: just a number. whatever is in favor at the time.
c: as far as a reason for even wanting to put one's life experiences into
musick, what would you think...
e: something that'd be mighty embarrassing. it'd be a year later, i mean, if
you spread it out exactly as it is, it's at least honest. in fact, the more
embarrassed i am, the more i can actually stand by the work, cause i know
it's totally honest. i know people can truly relate to it. if it was things
that were outside of my experience, how could anybody truly relate to it? i
like to paint all shades of a soul, basically, which is all the bits that you
like to hide away as well as the bits that you like to show. it can be an
uncomfortable experience but it's extremely cathartic and hopefully for all
of the people who listen to it.
c: (out of nowhere)...apocalyptic, i sense?
e: yeah, some is there (chuckles). but i wouldn't attempt to define the
meaning of apocalypse. i've always thought of apocalypse as change, and that
change can be towards the extremely positive as well. and i do sense a
transition going on. i sense a certain acceleration. i mean, the reason i
have the slogan 'sing while you may' on every record and every tape is
because i honestly believe that this is the most significant time in the
entire history of the planet, and anybody living now should be pleased to
live now to witness what's going on. sing while you may. but, i'm certainly
not predicting the end of the world. so many people have done it and failed.
i remember jehovah's witnesses talking about 1975. it was really funny when
january the first, 1976 came and i'm rubbing my hands with glee. it worried
me for awhile.
c: it worries everybody for awhile. they collect their last moments and try
to plot out their last hours. "what are my last moments of life going to be
and what would i do?" i suppose that kind of recollection is necessary. i
think alot of people alive at this time take life for granted and they live
their lives as if they had a million years to live...
e: you should never take your life for granted at all. i mean, it's hymn to
cherish every moment and to make it as rich as possible. no sleep at all.
c: or that's not life, it's waiting.
e: yeah, it's pointless.
c: very pointless. growing up, the situation that you grew up in, the
society, what was it like?
Victoria: what were some of the major influences that you've had, that are
with you now?
c: people...
e: i grew up in east london. i didn't particularly feel good then, felt like
a bit of an outcast for years. it was quite a hard area. it plays a big part
in many of the lyrics that i write. um, individuals? hard to say...
c: so many?
e: not lyrically. musickally, i think alot, maybe. i mean, i think anything
that you truly enjoy play it's part and filters it's way in. not necessarily
consciously, but certainly unconsciously.
c: is there a maria? ('the maria dimension' had just come out)
e: is there a maria?  there's six of them. (laughter)
c: i'm sure there's many more than that. as far as...you say it's great to
live in the society (i've never used that ridiculous word so much since or
after), in the world, in what's going on...do you ever find yourself wanting
to find a place to duck, to hide...?
v: to runaway to?
e: i think everybody goes thru that sometimes. i used to particularly, but
these days not so much. i find, like in previous tours, i was very happy to
meet different people and things like that, but coming to america, it's
changed a little bit. but so many people want to meet you, and sometimes you
find yourself retreating, not in a mean way, but it can be very hard
sometimes. i've not experienced it like that before. it's very much a bit
unnerving. that's the time i like to hide.
c: do you enjoy being in front of people delivering...?
e: yeah, i'd say so. i derive great satisfaction from it. i reach states of
mind that sort of...yeah...i'm happy to be in. it's sort of like an unreal
sort of state. you find yourself thinking after a very good show that you've
whipped yourself into a frenzy.
c: as far as your musick, what do you deliver it to people for, why your
putting out albums, why your playing in front of people, is there...?
v: what do you hope to get across to people? (thank you, victoria)
c: do you hope to get across to people?
e: what do i hope to get across to people? what i'm doing is opening the
cupboard to my own personal soul and people can do with it whatever they
wish. i certainly don't wish to preach to anybody, and i don't wish to force
my opinions down their throats. i think the lyrics leave enough space for the
imagination so people can put in their own conclusions. and, i think it's
much nicer than clubbing them over the head with a slogan. i detest slogans.
hopefully, the only thing i'm putting over is a series of questions so that
people can question themselves a little bit and question whats around them,
and not take everything as black and white. you know, what you hear on the
news is just sort of what your allowed to hear.
c: it's filtering thru someone else's information network..
e: i know. it can be a gross distortion of the truth. i tend to say don't
believe anything you hear...(unitelligible).
c: or what are people's motives for delivering you that information in the
first place (corporate sponsorship)? is it for their own good ($)? is it for
your own good? is it for anybody's good?
v: is it for their own walls?
e: it's someone's interpretation of what they think is the people's own good,
but that can be a total misinterpretation. we're all human. we're all islands
basically.
c: i think that forms seperations. when somebody believes that something is
happening in a certain way or occurring in a certain way or for a certain
reason, and then they say that to people and all of the sudden they have
subscribers and followers, and all of the sudden there are factions. there
are groups that think this way and there are groups that think that way, and
all of the sudden, they're opposing each other and it's created a battle that
does'nt need to exist because they think that they have a 'stance' on life
the experience when there isn't a simplistic, unidimensional 'stance'. i
mean, it's an individual stance, like you said.
e: yeah. i mean, that's all i can offer is an individual stance. i don't want
people sort of, like following every syllable that i utter as if it's 'the
truth', cause it's not 'the truth'. it's my personal truth. it could be as
far away from 'the truth' as you can believe. is there such a thing as 'the
truth'? (laughter)
c: no there isn't. it's a totally subjective interpretation of...it's like a
pillar that some people cling to...
e: i agree.

c: ...and they title it 'the truth', and then they hide and say "well, this
is my truth and everything else is false."
v: i think also alot of americans are looking for something to grab on to, to
follow.
e: they're looking for messiahs.
v: somebody to lead them.
e: yeah. that's where you get the jesus freaks with the loud hailers yelling
up off the road about (using an evangelist's voice steeped in dementia) how
the world is full of sin and how you'll burn in the fires of hell unless you
follow jesus! i mean, i can't understand why more people don't laugh. people
lose the ability to laugh at themselves, they lose the ability to laugh at
something that is that absurd...
v: they've lost their identity. i mean, what identity do they have here in
this melting pot of so many people, all these different things...
e: but in a way, that should give america the best chance because it is such
a melting pot.
c: because there are so many things to choose from.
e: but what happened? it's sort of like different races, they segregated,
kept apart, ghettoes developed. they have so much to learn from each other,
you know.
v: i mean, even myself, living in america, being hispanic, i feel whe i go to
apply for a job, i feel very aware that they may not hire me because of the
color of my skin.
e: but what is a true american? what is a true american?
v: there isn't. but, its so much there, engrained in my head.
c: it's an indian.
e: it's an indian, but the indians have been downtrodden right here, you
know.
c: they're forced to live on trailer courts and they fuckin' kill their cheif
because he has all the welfare checks and they go out and spend it on
alcohol. things have gotten very desperate on the reservation.
e: yeah, it's rediculous. i mean, a true american is black, a true american
is white, a true american is hispanic...
c: a true earth person. fuck nations.
e: basically that's how it is the world over.
c: as far as you've traveled, is there any place that you can see at least a
little bit more peace than anywhere else?
v: i think out past that star over there.
e: if i'm honest, i think holland has a very good chance. i just remember a
certain incident. i mean, there's the bad guys in holland too. there's this
party called the centrum aparthied and it's like the equivalent of the ku
klux klan here, or the national front. they're like closet nazis. and there
was an incident in holland where these mallacans (sp?), who are a minority in
holland, held up a train and somebody was killed and the centrum party seized
upon this incident because an election was coming up and they thought, right,
everybody is going to vote for us because we're against the mallacans and the
syrinians and whatever...
neils: they want them to go back to their countries.
e: ...they got less than 1 per cent of the vote. (laughter and applause) well
done holland, you know. that gives me hope, things like that. i just think
these assholes are everywhere. but you know, there is hope in some places.
v: we were just feeling the other day, there's no hope, where can we go?
n: you are welcome in holland. (laughter)
e: there's lots of good people in this country too.
c: yes there is. that's the paradox. i mean, i've noticed in america the
paradox. like when you have people who are becoming more aware of things and
people who are starting to realize what's happening, which is kind of being
more mediacized. you know, the earth is dying, you have to do this and this
to save it, but also the opposite side is rising, too. ignorance is getting
much more prominent, and killings, just people getting into gangs and just
fucking mowing down people for no reason other than they can. both sides are
rising and it's hard to deal with that constantly rising paradox...
e: like a polarization. yeah, i don't like to feel that i'm in some kind of
battle or war with my life. life's too short for battles and wars.
c: it's time to bridge gaps. (and, into another hamhanded segue...)
'hellsville'...
v: you know, i think there's a hellsville in kansas or missouri.
e: i mean, my impression is not so bad. (i think at this time edward
misunderstood us as meaning that we saw kansas and missouri as 'hellsville',
when actually i was intending to ask about the song of that title. going back
and listening to the interview tape, i got the impression that he felt we
were complaining very frequently of our situation, whereas i heard him
complain very little. i feel very 'american' as i listen. very much like i
have taken for granted the constructive elements in my enviroment.) like it's
a place where nothing really happens. i don't know if that's right.
c: things happen, like bubbles in a pot that hasn't quite reached boiling
yet.
n: it's under the bubbles.
c: yeah, exactly. under the surface.
silverman: it's not quite ku klux klan territory though, is it?
c: well, the ku klux klan were actually trying to secure a channel on kansas
city's local cable station. ('klansas city kable'. i kid you not.)
n: yeah, i heard about that.
e: oh no.
v: my parents have a little house out in kansas about 2 hours from here,
where there's an active ku klux klan, and my friend who lives out there said
"be very careful. be very careful." and i drove out there one evening and my
car broke down in this little town right around the place where the ku klux
klan is and they were peeking out of their houses, you know, looking at us.
it's pretty scary.
e: i mean really, the way to deal with people like that is simply to laugh at
them. if people laughed at hitler, sort of like strutting around with his
stupid little mustache and waving his arms in the air...i mean look at the
guy! he's funny!! if they'd laugh at him there wouldn't have been a nazi
germany. i mean, why can't people laugh at these idiots with their, sort of
like, white hoods, and sort of like...i mean they're rediculous!! they should
be figures of fun!!

...at this point, Sabine peeks in and reminds the band that they must eat and
when they play so we then transfer ourselves to Cafe Jerusalem a few blocks
away where we continued to converse with Neils and the Silverman (Phil)
despite the consistent interuptions by some fellow who claimed to be selling
t-shirts for the band and who was very, very 'American'. I have to commend
Phil for possessing and executing such extreme patience and tolerance while
interacting with this person. Anyway, we spoke of being able to feel the
flutter of a butterfly in Japan at our very table, war by means of kazoos and
silent dog whistles, Turkish coffee and the generosity and support which
Holland has for it's artists. They were all very kind and passionate people.
I have even that much more appreciation for their musick, the timeless musick
of the spheres. The show later that evening was a spectacle to behold. The
prophet Ka-Spel looming in front of the congregation with eyeless sockets and
flowing veinious limbs, animated by the light of life and of the dancing
sunspots on the eye of Venus. It is musick by which the light at the end of
the tunnel fades for it was indeed the beginning at which the end has not yet
been seen, and until it is sighted, anything could take place. I would like
to thank the Dots for their cooperation and their kindness in sharing with us
their words and their musick so that we may prosper and benefit how we may.
So we may recollect and project, listen and appreciate and weep such pure
tears of calm lunacy. Thank You.

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That interview took place on July 23, 1991 in Kansas City, Missouri. Looking
back, I would have asked very diffrent questions than I chose to then. It was
interesting to see how my questions refelected so much of where I was at in
my life. Dissatisfied with American society (there's that word again),
looking to move to Europe (which I finally will possibly be doing in 6 or so
months, Berlin, to be exact), freaked out about what I called "the rising
paradox" (my views now are much different). I have spoken with them in person
one time since then in Chicago about 2 years after the above interview. In
the basement of Lounge Ax, Neils, Edward and I talked for about 40 minutes
before they went on and I've had very little contact with them since due to
personal chaos. I read that their fax # is no longer available, but they now
have a private one. Would someone who knows this please ask for Neils consent
for  me to have it? It would be greatly appreciated! If he remembers me, I
know he won't mind. Anyway, I hope someone enjoys the interview. It actually
never made it to print (I stopped doing the magazine after that) so I am glad
to be able to get to those who are more likely to appreciate it. Hope
everyone is well...

Christus



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